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April, June, and November

November 1, 2011 at 11:36 PM

Quite honestly, I've been unfairly withholding myself from you. But please, understand: I suffer from a disease called perfectionism, which at times can be debilitating. If I can't have it perfect, often times, I won't even start, and once you get used to not starting, you don't bother even to try anymore.

House cleaning, for instance, has always been this way: a place for everything and everything in its place, but once there's one sock left on the floor, the whole house turns into a dump. It's the same with blogging. I tidied my thoughts and formed weekly topics for years in a row, but then I decided somewhere along the way that I was out of clever things to say, and I didn't try. And then I got bashful about my own absence, and then September passed, and now October's gone, too. And if the world ends in 2012, by then it'll be too late!

I could try catching up with everything, but the chore is daunting; it's easier to light a match and burn the house down. So, in order to travel light, I will pick up from scratch and see how far I can go.

I'll make it thirty, be it bright or boring. Apologies for my absence, and I look forward to connecting with you all again.

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Even unwitting, it seems to me you can't help but write about something that interests us all, and you've done it again: perfectionism. Such a scourge! I have a feeling many of us relate...
Perfectionism is the road to madness. That's my excuse for how I got this way. Welcome back!
We were created in God's image... Perfection is in our DNA.
Need to hear from you before too much of that Alaskan winter darkness enters your soul...
I am familiar with the feeling, but I gave up the hope a long while ago knowing perfection is not something I can achieve, not in my eyes anyway. So my hat off to anyone who can find perfection.

I can relate. I've "written" two different blogs but didn't post them due to my perfectionism. At least I don't yet have the track record you have, so no one has such expectations for me!
ok... but are you a violist yet? ;-)
I've transcribed Adventures in Violinland into Violaland all the way through book 2F, so I've become pretty familiar with the clef. Not ready to audition for the symphony just yet, but I get to play a lot of fun duets with my students!