Vacated

July 1, 2006 at 9:18 AM

This is the first day in over a month that I've sat down for a good long session at the computer. I feel like I've ditched all my friends here at the website... honestly, not a day goes by that I don't think about sitting down and catching up. It's just not been happening, though.

I've been with people non-stop for weeks. Yesterday I sat down for a brief lunch in the dining hall amidst hundreds of people, and suddenly my brain checked out. I heard voices around me, but was completely unable to respond to anything. I went back to the kitchen and began pinching rolls, grasping at incoherent thoughts and trying to piece together fragments of communication in order to finish the day. People continued to pepper me with words.

"Can I have ketchup?"
"How many cups?"
"Where's this bowl go?"
"How many people for breakfast?"
"When are you going to play for us?"
"Do you have any children yet?"
"That's a lotta dough!"

(blank stare)

Today swallowed me up pretty much the same way, so I sat in the bathroom for a couple of hours and drooled on myself, and that's when I admitted that I needed to be alone for a long, long time with nothing pressing in front of me.

I am a ghost turd, floating in and out of sight behind the opening at the bottom, waiting for the second flush.

From Eileen Geriak
Posted on July 1, 2006 at 10:54 AM

OH MY GOSH....Emily..you SOO need a vacation ! Lol ! The "ghost turd" thing was hilarious but I'm thinking it's probably not so funny for you right now. You need to get away girl...make some plans !

From Gabriel Kastelle
Posted on July 1, 2006 at 1:15 PM

Mmmm.... the dark side of long daylight hours. Where is moderation in Alaska? Don't worry, days are already becoming shorter. :-) Glad to see you back-- I thought blog had vanished. Good luck with your on-going trainings, besides work and all! ((Maybe it's all just a case of metronome withdrawal?))

From Neil Cameron
Posted on July 1, 2006 at 2:20 PM

We all need a break or a change for a while now and then Emily. Hang in there and remember how to have fun and enjoy life.

Either that or focus on your inner turd. :)

Neil

From Linda Lerskier
Posted on July 1, 2006 at 9:12 PM

I knew that metronome would finally get to her head.

But I was seriously wondering where you were!

From Michael Schallock
Posted on July 2, 2006 at 4:49 AM

Hey Emily!
That's summer in Alaska.
Tomorrow we're going king salmon and halibut fishing. We're going down to Seldovia by 4th of July creek. Fitting!
When are you ging to come down for some of my fabulous cooking?
Hang in there...
Michael

From Emily Grossman
Posted on July 2, 2006 at 5:32 AM

Ha, Linda! Mental metronomes of madness mesmerize me.

Michael, I need you and your wife for the 26th of August. Are you available?

From Pauline Lerner
Posted on July 3, 2006 at 6:55 AM

Emily, I wondered what had happened to you. I thought you loved summer and Linda hated it. Now I'm confused.

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