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Tumultuous Auditions

September 1, 2006 at 2:41 PM

I hate waiting for audition results, especially if I may not be around to see them for myself when they're posted. This waiting is going to kill me...why oh why can't it just be posted. If I don't make symphony I'm not sure what I'm going to do. I think I may stop playing violin. I may have some talent on violin but I just can't control being nervous. I wish I could. I wanted to walk into that room and show them what I could do and how much I improved since last year. I feel like all I did instead was fall flat on my face. I made mistakes that shouldn't have happened. Why do I always have so many problems with violin? I didn't learn any solo rep. during the summer really. I have stuff to practice and work on but I have nothing really learned. I want to be better, I really do, but nothing I've done has brought me any step closer to my dream, goals or ambitions. Oh what a cruel fate I must have to be plagued with such deficientcies.
Oh gosh, I should probably cut and paste your entry into my own blog and date it Sept. 18th. I've got the same thing coming up. I bet most everybody feels like you do after a symphony audition, so take comfort. I hope you did much better than you feel you did.
gosh, I feel lucky lol. I already auditioned last year and I got in, so now I am automatically in it until I want to drop out.
Greetings,
when you are still acknowledging your deficiencies you are still making progress. There is no alternative,
Cheers,
Buri
With a good teacher, work ethic, and time, you can accomplish just about anything you want.

Good luck with your future auditions.