April 2006

birthday... Easter... violin... job...

April 19, 2006 07:36

It was my birthday a few days ago. This year I received one present from a friend (a DVD) and a card from my family with "Dear William" and a bunch of signatures. Not very thoughtful but hey, at least they remembered.

I got a Chocolate Easter egg this year for the first time. Though, I ate it before Easter came. Then I watched Moses on TV but didn't get see the 2nd part on the following day because I got sent to work in Sydney for a few days. They sure make full use of me during my 4-week notice period.

I'm beginning to complain at my own progression with the violin. Although I've spent more hours practising in the past month, I don't see much progression other than memorising notes. My tone is scratchy and undecided. My intonation comes and go. There must be something wrong with the way I am practising... need to have a little counselling chat with my teacher this Saturday.

Last week I loved my violin. This week, I'm not sure if it's me or her but we just couldn't connect.

Next Friday will be my last day at my current job. The day pass by easily when you don't really care or stress about work. In the past, the leavers always get a moment where all colleagues gather around to say all the nice things about you and say goodbye, and then wait for your speech. What will I say? "Thanks. Bye."

After 10 job interviews in the past 2 weeks, it is still coming. You go talk to the recruitment agents, they submit your resume to the employers, the employers ask for an interview, then arrange for 2nd interview, for a large company there may be a 3rd interview... I'm now only at my first interviews stage. Gosh! Looking for a job is a full-time job itself. I need a holiday.

I'll just chill out and watch my present (the DVD).

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I love my violin today

April 10, 2006 06:03

Czardas, playing the first few phrases on the G string and I felt like almost crying hearing those yearning notes with wide vibrato. I got it teacher, I felt for the first time what you were trying to describe to me.

For some reasons, my violin responded to everything I was trying to get out of her today. The response has never been this good. The tone, gosh! The tone! Was it because of the intensive playing during the concert the night before, which suddenly opened up her voice? Or was it simply because I've put the right amount of rosin on the bow? Please, please stay this way. I don't think I've told you enough... I love you!

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Never try, never know.

April 3, 2006 06:34

Resignation letter, along with its cc copies are out! I've done it. Then I was overwhelmed with the emotion side of things. Came with it was the insecurity of where I will be going next.

To my surprise, 2 calls followed. Interviews. Tomorrow.

Further chatting with other former colleagues, I didn't realise I "worth" more than I thought. Quite a lot more.

Suddenly everything seems to suggest that I have made the right decision and that everything will be alright. But, who knows for sure? I have 4 words for myself: never try, never know.

I shall enjoy playing in the concert this Saturday :-)

Time to make some copies of certificates and reference letters...

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Scary... but who cares, I am on fire!

April 1, 2006 02:50

Ok, that's it! I'm not letting them screw me up again. I quit! Oh well, that's how it's going at work. Here's how it has been in the last 2 years:

"Perhaps it's a little too soon, we'll definately promote you in 6 months time".

6 months later...

"You've been doing a good job and we are glad you stayed with the firm. But perhaps another 6 month will really shape you up for promotion."

Another 6 months later...

"You've done all we asked of you, good job. But you were not given the opportunity to lead a team so far. These opportunities will come in the next 6 month and you'll be able to prove youself. So promotion will be promising then."

Talking about being screwed, it happened to me 3 times now. My letter is ready. All it needs is my signature on it. Monday I'm walking into the office with it in a big white envelop. It will be a pleasant moment to win my dignity back...for 10 minutes. Then I'll spend the rest of the month worrying about if I can get another job!

Oh well, I've survived this before and I will be fine. On the bright side, at least I will have lots of time to practice my scales :-)

My teacher was very pleased with my playing today. She said she was glad see that I am back to my good old self. So my practice has paid off.

The concert will be held next Saturday night. Today I played better than ever before during the rehearsal. I played the music as if I was a soloist. Those who read my previous blog would remember I get chucked at the very back of the violin section because the lead got threathen. Well, I was definitely leading today. Just that I was leading from the back :-)

Ok, time to get back to reality... now where's that website where people go look for jobs...

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