March 2006

So tired...but not giving up!

March 16, 2006 05:31

I wanted to enrol for the next exam session in May, but my teacher thinks that my technical works (scales, arpeggios, double-stops, bowing exercices etc.) are not quite ready. She proposed to postpone it to September. I admit, based on what I played to her that day, going for an exam would be suicidal.

I wanted to prove her wrong. I switched to "exam mode" and for the past 2 weeks, I've practiced my technical works inside out, upside down, front to back and back to front. By now I've memorise all that is required for the exam (with a few more things to fix). I look forward to seeing her reaction to my rapid progress in the upcoming lesson this Saturday!

Most of the time there are no set pieces or technical works I am supposed to play for my teacher. I'd like to change that and take things in my hand. I shall write her a list of the exact things I want to play for every lesson from now (like a concert program). I hope she will like this idea.

There has been a little unpleasant "politics" going on in the orchestra rehearsals. The 2nd violin lead will be away for 4 weeks. The concert master wanted me to take her place because I have not missed a rehearsal so far and being one of the few that actually practiced in between rehearsals. 2nd violin lead obviously was not happy and came up with reasons to shuff me at the very back. I just want to play and have fun. Leave me alone!

Work has been very demanding lately. When you realise you're still working at 1:30am, something is terribly wrong with this job. I'm surprised though to still manage time to practice so much. I'm pleased with my effort and hope my teacher will to. I hope I get to keep this up.

Sometimes I wonder, why am I so obssessed with the violin? If I weren't, I'd have so much time to do other more entertaining and relaxing activities... like watching a movie or go to the Commonwealth Games now running in Melbourne. But when I run my fingers up and down the finger board, my bowing being absolutely smooth, I get the tone and intonation I wanted, and think back how far I have come, it definitely worth all that's been sacrificed!

Where am I going with the violin? No sure. Let's just enjoy the learning process for now!

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