November 2013

Prescreening.

I'm prescreening tomorrow. All I can think is "I'm prescreening tomorrow". I have gone through the worst amount of stress these last two weeks figuring out dates, finding a pianist, and then the location of recording. I felt like I was all alone in trying to figure this out and was very much depressed. I got low enough to think, "Why am I even trying to major in music; I suck". With the help of friends and my mother, I was pulled out of that hole. Every day of those excruciating two weeks, I compared myself to my section leader, and to other violist in my outside of school orchestra, which ruined my confidence even more.

In enters my private teacher; my guardian angel. With time running out and only five days until my prescreening, she comes in and helps pick up the pieces to my shattered confidence just by having a lesson with me. Three days later (today) I spent my whole morning with her, having lessons and a rehearsal with my pianist. Now I feel prepared; now I have confidence again; now, I am ready.

I prescreen tomorrow, and then after that I wait. But all that matters is that, I'm ready, excitedly scared,but ready

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