June 2008

Am I Really Cut Out for This?

June 30, 2008 10:08

Ok, first of all, I found this site in a google search for how to play double stops/octaves easier. i was amazed, and immediately joined. I learned a lot about octaves, and about a lot more too.

I began thinking, though, that maybe this would be a good place to get some advice. I'm going to be a sophomore at Arizona State University as a violin performance major. Now, first off, a lot of people think ASU is a joke, cause it's supposed to be a huge 'party school'. well, if you wanna party, you're gonna find a party. if you want to seriously study the violin, you can do that too. which is what i've been doing.

However, this summer, i have totally slacked off. i mean, i play my violin every couple of days, and more recently, every day. but i have to force myself to do it. that has never been a problem before. I just like being a normal person, you know? i love to just wake up, go to the gym, go shopping or to lunch with friends/family, and do whatever else strikes my mood. Im just worried that if i don't have motivation now, when i'm not surrounded by music and other musicians and by people motivating me to practice, am i really cut out to do this for a living?

Not to mention the fact that I have only emailed my violin professor once this summer, and that was this morning.... she wanted updates from me on my summer and practicing and everything. but i haven't emailed her, cause everything i have to tell anyone is not professional. she's always stressing being professional. so what am i supposed to tell her about my summer? i can't tell her about living at my dad's and how i miss my mom but i think she's crazy... i definitely can't tell her that i'm having a great time here without her on my case all the time about practicing....but i CAN tell her that yeah, i practice every couple of days. and i'm working a lot.

so that's what i did. lame, i know.

i don't know who actually reads this stuff, or whether it will get a lot of traffic, but maybe someone can help me out. let me know if this whole situation with my teacher and not practicing and wanting to be a 'normal' person' is a common thing or not.

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