February 16, 2005 at 6:16 AM

My grandfather died yesterday. In less than 2 years, I've gone from 5 grandparents to 2. Two sudden deaths, including this time, and another not so sudden. Thursday is the memorial, for which I'm playing the Lord's Prayer. I had the BEST arrangement two years ago, but I've since moved, and lost it... but I'm picking up another (though a different arrangement) tomorrow. hopefully.

It's been tough. I don't usually like to write on anything other than music related stuff on this blog, but I feel like this needs to be documented somewhere. I'm tired. Truly. It hasn't all... hit me yet though. I've tried to just be here for my mom. I'll be driving to an orchestra tour this weekend about 5 hours away and... I suppose I'll have time while I'm there to enjoy myself violin-wise, but also to cry and simply get used to the fact that I won't be driving to see my grandfather anymore.

And life lives on.

From Ben Clapton
Posted on February 16, 2005 at 6:24 AM

I felt like that when my nanna passed away. You find it hard to move on, but eventually the pain dulls. I'm not sure whether it ever goes away, or whether you just learn to deal with it. But they will always be there, in your heart, and you'll always remember who they were, and how much you love them.

From Nisha Bala
Posted on February 16, 2005 at 12:37 PM

My condolences Jenni, it took me a while to realise that my cousin passed away, two days before my birthday.

It was probably the most sombre birthday of my life, and somehow, along with the rest of my family, we were all numb and felt as if he was still alive and laughing. But, as you said life goes on and it really does.

From Emily Liz
Posted on February 16, 2005 at 4:10 PM

My deepest condolences, Jenni.

From Nick Bleisch
Posted on February 16, 2005 at 4:43 PM

I'm sorry to hear about your loss. Your grandfather sounds very special.

From Karin Evensta
Posted on February 16, 2005 at 11:52 PM

He'll be in the room with you whenever you play the music he loved best. On the saddest days when I miss my dad, I play his favorites, cry, and end up feeling better. Play for him every day, and peace will come.

From Sue Donim
Posted on February 17, 2005 at 1:51 AM

Hi Jenni, sorry to hear:(

From Jenni Thompson
Posted on February 17, 2005 at 4:57 PM

thanks so much everyone...

From nate r
Posted on February 17, 2005 at 11:23 PM

Hi Jenni,

I'm sorry to hear the sad news. My deepest condolences to you and your family.

Nate

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