April 1, 2005 at 2:39 PM

Well, my hearing for my recital is today. I'm dressed and ready to leave the house. Double checking that I have my music and my violin and my bow and my brain...I hope it goes well. I've been under so much stress lately...from big things to little things like my sister went missing. She is o.k, though. Search and Rescue found her. Her car had just broken down in the middle of nowhere. But I guess all that and the hearing and moving and gigs and family stuff and grandma....whatever. I totally had a hysterical fit last night. Also because we didn't have any food and I'm trying to save money and hadn't really eaten in two days. So I took off with my purse and walked around and then came back and bawled and blamed my mood on all sorts of things I shouldn't have. Things smoothed over, but that rotten feeling inside persisted. I just tried to keep myself composed. After a good night's rest, it seems like forever ago and I'm strong again. Sometimes I just let all the old stupids creep up and bother me when that isn't what is wrong. I just am stressed and need to chill out. Well. I'm going out to lunch after my hearing whether I pass or not. And celebrating that I actually played it! I'll let you guys know how it goes.
Sals,
JW

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