August 10, 2004 at 6:12 AM

So today I played straight through the Bach Part.3 for someone (pardon. Without the first mvt. because I keep having memory slips and it is not ready) but the others. I started to get nervous in the middle of the Loure and the bow began to shake, but I gained control and made it through. I'm working on stamina. That is my worst enemy. He said it sounded pretty good and gave some tips about where to do more with dynamics and places where energy got lost and of course the ever remaining intonation issues. WHY CAN'T I PLAY IN THIS KEY??? My hand keeps slipping up up up. Maybe I get excited or something. It isn't nerves that does that because it happens in the practice room as well. Anyway. Tomorrow I play for a good friend who is a ballerina but a very adapt critique of classical vioin music. The day after, one of my bestest friends is coming to see me from SC (we spent five years playing together in chamber music, she is a cellist and developed the best of friendships) and I want to play the whole thing including the Prelude for her. She'll be brutally honest and kind and helpful. She hasn't heard me play in about a year, so I'm sure that will make me nervous as hell. Good. I need that as much as possible NOW not later. Hm. Most people go to sleep at night. Maybe I should try doing that, see what it is like!!!
-Jennifer

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