May 8, 2003 at 2:33 AM

I've just come back from a "friend's" play...and its strange how we in the arts world come and go and use one another and confide in one another and pretend to get along and yet set one against another. I am so confused about men. why is isaac IMing me..we broke up a month ago. to taunt me? I got good news from summer festivals, and college opportunites, that I probably shouldnt go into here for privacy's sake, but needless to say, I am relieved and thrilled about the possibilities theat await me in the coming months with auditions and such...I am so overjoyed about music, but so depressed about the social interactions I must face everyday with certain people I wish I could avoid. I hate the fact that I am not dating, and I hate the fact that the breakup was my fault, and that I am still feeling guilty and he isnt. I hate the fact that I had such an outstanding day, and a damn conversation with such a insignificant BOY is making me depressed. Dont rain on my damn parade.