
March 4, 2009 at 2:27 AM
This is just a little poem I wrote yesterday about how practicing has been going for me for the moment. Let's see who can guess what emotion that is?
Self-Imposed
I don't know if I can continue on my path,
which before seemed so clear, pristine and perfect, but
once embarked upon
is long, treacherous and full of
hoplessness.
Do I have it in me to continue,
to overcome, triumph and reach
my destination?
I think I do,
but
I'm lost in a sea of desperation,
exhaustion and frustration.
Is this self-imposed hell
worth my passion?
any words of encouragement?
I breathed to play some notes,
A cadenza quite fantastic.
I breathed a little bit too much,
And bang went my elastic.
Hi Michael, sure I understand you and know how you feel and here's my poem with the same emotion! My first ever in english so if it can make you laugh...
Yesterday, first lesson since a long time at the conservatory
since normally at teacher's house because too in a hurry
as usual, listened to all these prodigies...
when my brain was steel tortured by maths, camestry and masochist physics injuries
when my soul was frozen by the shiverings of this intellectual jail
and my body weakened by numerous hours of awaked moronic complexity
as walking through the hall, remembered dearly that there was where I really belong
remembered this old dream that was still alive
not so long ago when the hell of "reality" was still out of me
and I was safe from all this complex chess game of adult world
everything comes to ask this
which jail is the best? The one of music, the one of sciences?
For sure, I would prefer to be a slave of music
even if it's tyranic
but raw talent is not fairly dispense
as I listen to some universitairy students
talking of their parties on the weekend
and their shoping evenings...
Then came my lesson,
after a hard exam session
and not much compassion
I'm an alian at home
had practiced during the poor little time I had
my fingers made me really mad
still frozen after an hour...
was it my hands or my heart that was frozen?
did my survival wedding with my calculator spoil it all?
did the bad husband killed my secret lover!
glad it was the winter
cold ennough so that my tears could freeze there
as I stared with glass eyes
Had it been the summer,
my unfrozen tears
would have drown my teacher...
Oh, I miss you my lover!
One day, I will switch jails!
Ok, it's ordinairy but for a french speaking... lol
Hope it helps to see that others feel the same too!
Good luck!
Anne-Marie
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