June 26, 2003 at 4:56 PM

well, im taking a week off from practicing, since im going to florida....and NOT bringing my stupid viola....when i get back next week ill pick it up again and work on all my weaknesses(feeling that internal pulse better, bow arm....)all this for juilliard. so i dont walk in there like a fool. i wish i could've been a tennis player. its sooooo fun....but music is great too :)(of course i love music more). i seemed to have gotten rid of my music attitude. i assume its b/c i have sooo much to work on in my playing that i figured i wasnt so good. (sigh). well, ill get a lot better now. i wish i had a bit more self confidence though. or maybe im just so damn truthful.