February 17, 2003 at 8:45 PM

ugh. i need to work on my vibrato. its not relaxed. i practiced about two hours so far. ill do another hour and a half probably. on etudes and orchestra excerpts. i think i want to go to CIM. i might go there next year to get a lesson or two with some of the teachers on the viola faculty. ugh...i hate practicing. i hope i get into a good conservatory. anyway, its snowing like crazy here. i had to shovel some, which i was very mad about....arg....i burned my right index finger b/c i put it on the top of the fireplace.wow. that was stupid of me....hahah. its not badly burned so its okay. so i hope jen practices more. i really dont like listening to bad music. mom heard her play one of the handel sonatas at the open house(that was day i did the duet by lidel with margaretha and people kept asking my firneds about me) and mom said "wow, why is that girl here! shes messing you up!" haha. yeah well....i wish we had juries at the end of year so they could get rid of the people who belong at cac. stupid highschool. anyway, mom wont let me teach violin and viola. arg! i really cant stand her. although she was partly right b/c i have a good steady job at ugh....that damn bagel store.....dear god, what am i doing there?! i should be teachning not cleaning and mopping....ughhhhhh. shes so annoying. but i know shes just trying to make my life easier. i should probably start the crucible already.......well, its not too long of a book. gonna go read and then practice....later.