August 8, 2003 at 1:53 AM

I am sad to say taht I have only been doing around 1 1/2 -2 hours a day. My fingers are the things holding me back. erg. But I do need to be careful to them, because they are the things that are going to carry me through college and such. Oh man, I have been soo ooo paranoid witht hte whole college thing. I mean, I am sooooo scared yet I feel that I want to be ready for anything. And, I I really want to make it into a musci school, but then I have kept the thought in my mind that chances are that I wont make it into the prestigous collegse that I want to be in. erg. the thought makes me cringe but I know that it is possible, so I ahve been keeping several otheres in my mind. even though I try to think about other things. oh well. That is life. Not getting everything that you want and need. But erg!!! Sometimes it just seems that life is soooo unfair. but, now, I am just complaining. so I think that I will stop now. Please forgive me. well, lets see what else is going on. well, not too much, but college is alway son my mind. so I think that my dreams will be all about Juilliard and Peabody and CIM and great stuff like that. YAY. well, toodles