August 2003

August 7, 2003 18:53

I am sad to say taht I have only been doing around 1 1/2 -2 hours a day. My fingers are the things holding me back. erg. But I do need to be careful to them, because they are the things that are going to carry me through college and such. Oh man, I have been soo ooo paranoid witht hte whole college thing. I mean, I am sooooo scared yet I feel that I want to be ready for anything. And, I I really want to make it into a musci school, but then I have kept the thought in my mind that chances are that I wont make it into the prestigous collegse that I want to be in. erg. the thought makes me cringe but I know that it is possible, so I ahve been keeping several otheres in my mind. even though I try to think about other things. oh well. That is life. Not getting everything that you want and need. But erg!!! Sometimes it just seems that life is soooo unfair. but, now, I am just complaining. so I think that I will stop now. Please forgive me. well, lets see what else is going on. well, not too much, but college is alway son my mind. so I think that my dreams will be all about Juilliard and Peabody and CIM and great stuff like that. YAY. well, toodles

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August 5, 2003 19:36

I did about 2 1/2 hours before the old finger started to hurt again on the fingertips. erg. they are really starting to get in the way of any sort of really long good practicing that I was "dreaming" of having erg. My teacher thinks that I am not ready for the Wienaiski concerto in d minor. But I would really like to play it, and while I was at this musci camp at Furman University I had Chris Gawlik teach me arounf 4 lessons and he told me that he thought that I was ready for it. But now, my teacher wasnts me to do something else which is fine, but IU think that I might just look at the concerto on my own. And I was thinking about the future again, not good! and so college is only 2 years away and then after that, career time. erg. I must start thinking about my college audition piece and junk like that. In fact I had such a large reality check that earlier today I was all over the internet looking up colleges and taking notes and stuff. Thank goodness I was jerked back to the present time and still found that I am a kid still. heck, I m not even 16 yet. erg/ well, this has been a sort of odd day. and I cant wait to go to sleep and go to the pool tomorrow. Oh, and on my birthday I think that I am going with all of my friends contradancing, mad fun right there. 25 days away!!!! YAY!!! toodles

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August 4, 2003 07:52

well, let me see, yesterday was a doozy. I didnt practice but instead went to the lake. and learned how to water ski, maybe not such a great idea. bc now I am all sore and I have a lesson in less than10 hours. now I must figure out how I am going to be able to play well since this is my first lesson in about 1 month. arg arg arg, why am I so stupid??? I know, I know, bc its fun. and painful ohohohoh. erg.

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August 2, 2003 07:03

Well, yesterday I pulled out an amazing 3 hours. I have to be careful how much I practice because of the whole finger incident. I have decided that octaves are not exactly my strong point, something to work on, yay!! note the sarcasm. Well, orchestra camp is coming up and the music has a few tricky spots. Oh, the worst is that I was 2nd chair 1sts. But then my friend comes along and I guess he is better than me, and now he is 2nd. Oh man, we will get to see after chair auditions. I am soooo happy, I get to have a lesson on Monday. It has been 1 whole month and I feel as if I am barely going to survive. so, I cant wait for that to happen. YAY!!!!!!!!!

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