March 8, 2005 at 12:49 PM

Turns out that UWA decided that they would only accept a certain number of strings for the orchestra. Apparently they thought they weren't going to have enough strings, hence the con got told that everyone would be accepted. Then they had too many, but the con wasn't told that the auditions were actually whether we would get into the orchestra or not.

There's a bit of angst between the con and uwa atm. They don't treat us with much respect, and apparently they don't treat their students with much either. The con has two "new" students who have transferred over from UWA. They both complained that UWA doesn't really respect the students in many professional aspects.

After the audition yesterday and the results today, I didn't really feel like practicing. I could force myself to practice, but I feel that unless you actually feel like practicing, you don't get as much done.

I was feeling really dissolusioned this afternoon. Doubting myself, doubting my musicality. Wondering whether music was the right choice or whether I should have chosen something different.

After talking with a friend from uni (oboist z), I was convinced that all it means is that I just have to work harder so that they can have no reason but to accept me next year.

Unfortunately, that means getting inspired. So I spent another evening infront of the simpsons, and now I'm re-inspiring myself with my inspirational pieces which I haven't listened to for a while (me thinks I should spend more time listening to these pieces).

Right now I'm listening to Heifetz playing the Tchaikovsky Violin Concerto, and later on tonight I shall listen to the Mendelssohn concerto played by Kreisler. I'll also probably have a listen to the Beethoven Symphonies over this week, because they are works of real class.

Ahh, 12 minutes into the Tchaik, and I'm beginning to feel inspired again :)

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