Any help please?
I have just done an audition which was almost completely destroyed by nerves. I was shaking so badly, legs and arms, that my bow bounced on the string and I struggled to keep going. I did keep going, but none of the sensitivity or subtlety that I had practised was evident.
This was for a job I really wanted, and I think the pressure of that made my nerves even worse than usual.
I almost always suffer from nerves, (and have done since I was 15 - and am now 30), but thought that recently my shaking had got better. Obviously not, as this was one of the worst shaking episodes I can remember. I tried everything that I could before the audition, - banana, deep breathing, complex carbohydrates three hours before, no caffiene for 4 hours before, drinking enough water, positive visualisation, positive self- talk. I have done Alexander technique in the past (hoping to feel more "grounded" and less prone to shaking) and this has not helped me.
I feel dreadful, because all my practise and preparation for this audition seems to have been wasted.
Can anyone help? Of course, if I want to work, I will have to do another audition soon, and I really want this not to happen again, or at least not to happen to such an extent.
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