Recently, I performed Mendelssohn's Violin Concerto with my community orchestra, South Bay Philharmonic, in Silicon Valley. The event fulfilled a multi-year dream of mine to perform an entire major concerto for a live audience (a goal I had since returning as an adult restarter in 2011 after being away for 20+ years).
Being that it was the first time performing an entire major work, and although I had prepared well, I started the evening thinking "What if it's a disaster -- what if nerves get the better of me, or I have a catastrophic memory lapse?" and "Can I handle the pressure? C'mon, this isn't Carnegie Hall!" To my surprise, I felt calm during the performance and even experienced moments of joy, which was a first for me since I'm usually too nervous performing solo to have any fun. I ended the evening thinking, "Yes, I really can do it, and next time I will perform even better!"
Although I did not play my absolute best I am satisfied with the outcome overall. Some of the techniques for dealing with performance anxiety, I learned right here on V.com, so I thought I'd share the performance with you all. Hope you enjoy!
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