Hello, my name is Kate. Today I decided to quit the violin. I've been playing the violin for only two months, but even though it was only a short time I grew so attached to it that quitting the violin breaks my heart. I want to learn the violin so bad, but about a week of playing the violin I noticed a soft ringing in my left ear. I searched it up the internet and found out that it's called tinnitus. I didn't want to tell my family about it because I know they'll make me quit the violin, so I continued practicing even though it was hurting my ear. Tinnitus isn't only the problem, actually the ringing doesn't bother me at all. What bothers me is my sudden sensitivity to everyday sound. The sound of people talking loudly irritates me and I unintentionally snap at them, which makes me feel bad. And worse, I can't explain myself to them at all. Loud and high-pitched noises hurt my ear, like the sound of cars, loud music, etc. I also get headaches after hearing such noise and it usually lasts the whole day. Sometimes I can't get rid of it even after I sleep at night.
Since I started the violin, I can't listen to music anymore because it just sounds wrong to me. I can't even play the violin without a practice mute and ear plugs. My left ear isn't only the problem, my right ear usually hurts too and gets 'tired' easily.
I decided to read stories about violinists with tinnitus, but the stories I've read didn't help at all. I'm scared that I'll be like some of them, so I'm deciding to quit. I am totally in love with the violin but I don't want to damage my ears any further. I'm only 18, and the thought of hearing loss and extreme case of tinnitus and hyperacusis frighten me. I know I should probably tell my family about what I'm experiencing right now, but having a sensitive hearing isn't the only health issue that I'm dealing right now. I'll go see an ENT soon though.
What should I do? Am I doing the right thing by quitting the violin? If so, can I switch to another musical instrument that won't hurt my ears?
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