Lately, I started spending more time practicing the violin. I started practicing slower, and just overall concentrating more. This has made me recognize all of the mistakes that I routinely make, and helped me see a lot of flaws that I did not notice before.
Sometimes, I get very frustrated with the lack of progress, or just not being able to progress fast enough. Often times, I would go through a passage/scale, record it, listen to all of the out of tune notes, then mark them and fix them.
A week later, it suddenly appears like I have made a lot of progress, and that that I've fixed my intonation problems. Thus, I would work on other things(phrasing,dynamics ...etc).
However, if I'm not careful enough while practicing, problems with intonation would creep up again, and I would have to go back to slow practice...it just seems like a never ending cycle. Every time I make a mistake, I seem to take two steps back.
I've found that it only really takes 5-6 well placed slightly out of tune notes to really ruin a piece, or to ruin my interpretation. I know that it's important to be patient, but does anyone have any mental hacks to just deal with frustration? Today, in particular, I feel like my confidence is shot, and I feel like I'm a horrible violinist. It sucks that I have some off days where I sounded much better a week ago than I do today. It almost seems like the more you practice, the worse you get! I know this is not true, and it's just a mental illusion, but there are some days where I truly believe these things.
I also know I'm not perfect. There are some weeks where life gets in the way, and I end up not practicing scales for 4 days straight. I love playing the violin, but there are some days when I feel like I hate playing. How do you keep yourself motivated? How can I teach myself discipline? Especially when it comes to playing scales. I also feel that I'm too negative, and keep on beating myself up, but how can you be confident in your playing when you see so many flaws? Sorry for the rant...
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