Hello, all. I'm an infrequent poster, so I hope you all can bear with me through this.
I'm a violist and graduated last May with my BM in Performance degree and decided to wait before continuing to graduate school. I wanted to make sure I was doing what I wanted. By November I was itching to get back in school and continue my formal studies (I had switched teachers and continued lessons after graduation on the side). My current teacher, the same one I had switched to, was hired as another viola teacher at my old school, so I decided to return and start working on a masters degree. It's been about two months, give or take, and I am terribly unhappy. I dislike being at the same school and I'm finding my lessons more and more frustrating. I dread going to them every week. I still love playing music and viola as much as I ever have, but my teacher makes me feel a little incompetent and it's beginning to affect other areas of my life. I have voiced my concerns to her a couple of times and she always seems to listen well, but nothing changes. I feel like she isn't listening to me.
I'm nearly at the point where I want to quit school entirely and work on my playing on my own. I would love to transfer and start school somewhere else, but I have missed all the application deadlines and audition dates, making fall acceptance impossible. I'm also not audition ready because my teacher refuses to help me prepare for regional orchestral auditions, not to mention auditions for another school. I adore my teacher as a friend, and other students seem to benefit from her teaching, but I feel like she isn't a good fit for me...
I'm open to listen to any advice any of you have. I will say this: I get a hefty financial aid package from my school (scholarship and stipend for GA work) and if I were to transfer, I would need the same amount of assistance. I come from an incredibly low-income family.
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