I have, on occasion, expressed my hardship with learning violin. Two weeks ago I came down with the flu and all daily activity ceased for 8 days. Even after I got better, I did not jump right back into my daily activities. While I was sick, I was glad that I did not have to pick up the violin and practice. In fact, it was a relief not having to practice for all that time.
I have now gone from practicing 10-12 hours a week to less than 5. I no longer look at my beautiful violin and get excited. When I pick it up to practice, it feels like I'm lifting a weight instead and go through the motions of practicing. The once fiery passion I had to learn and play has now dwindled down to almost nothing.
I have voiced my constant hardships; running into walls, taking months for small progress, hours and hours of practicing and a year's worth of private lessons and still sounding the same day in day out, month after month.
I have no prior experience to compare this to. 15 months into learning and I still cannot play in any other position except first position. I don't know if that is normal or not. My private teacher has not said anything about when we will start learning other positions or he doesn't think I'm ready. I've mentioned my desire to play other things but he continually goes back to simple stuff that I can play. But for some reason, he has me play them repeatedly. I feel that the last 15 months of what I have learned in private lessons could've been learned in 8 months. We're not following any specific lesson guide from a book. We did in the beginning, but now he just prints something and says we're playing this today. And next week its something from a different book. And the following week is something I might bring in that he thinks is good to learn.
It leaves me very confused. Why, after 15 months, am I still playing like this? Why has it taken 15 months to reach this point when I feel it should've taken me 8 months or less? Why am I still playing in first position? Why aren't the lessons following some order?
I don't know. All that mixed with my being on the verge of packing in and giving up, I have decided to try another school and seek a second opinion. Its the only solution I can come up with. Unfortunately, I have already paid for a set of 4 lessons starting next weekend with my current school, so I'm going through with that. But afterwards, I think I should try a new school, new instructor and perhaps reignite my desire for violin. I just don't know what else to do. I'm at my wits end.
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