I know this has been discussed before but I think I may be a special case!
I get so nervous before a performance that I can hardly play at all. I'm kind of an intermediate, I mostly play pieces from Suzuki books 4 and 5. Recently I volunteered to play for a charity gig. My friends were singing / playing a very simple traditional Irish song and I said I'd play along with the melody. Nothing more complex than a nursery rhyme really. But when it came to rehearsing I was shaking so much that I could hardly place my fingers in the right place on the fingerboard and I almost dropped the bow. I felt so embarrassed because I thought my friends must have thought I was awful. They were nice about it but I sounded like I'd been playing for a month. So I said I was sorry but I didn't think I could do it. I now and feel so sad and disappointed. The same thing happened when I tried to take my grade 5 a couple of years ago. I could definitely play the pieces I was just a total emotional wreck. I try to practice for an hour to an hour and a half most weekdays. I'm fine when I'm on my own!
How do I start the process of getting over this? I really love my violin playing.
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