This story is a big lengthy, but bear with me!
I have known my orchestra director for 6 years now, and through the course of time, he has seen my playing level grow and seen me flourish. I am a senior in high school, and am at the top of the first violin section. I want to be concertmaster, and feel I would do a much better job than the girl currently sitting in this seat. She is lazy, apathetic about orchestra (I've even heard her complaining about the "hassles" of being first chair) and just doesn't care! He realized this and got so fed up with her that he pulled me out of one of my classes and had me learn her solo for the very next day, and led me to believe that I would be taking over for her. Two weeks later, he has her sitting up there again, and myself deducted a few seats. I understand that I may not be as skilled as her, but I care 100% more than she does and feel that I would do a better job.
I've given up, I really want to help out and be as generous, but I feel as though I am taken advantage of too often (different cases like this have happened before). I want to lead and take charge, and I know I can. But I am never given the chance, and the orchestra is suffering. Do I talk to my director, or just bite my tongue and let the chips fall where they may.
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