I am very inhibited in several aspects of my life: socially (I'm shy, self-conscious, and not a natural conversationalist), physically (I have some sort of mental block against dancing for example - I feel like I literally can't let myself do it - and freedom while playing), musically, and expressively (I tend to be withdrawn, and this definitely applies to performing). I would say I am less inhibited when in private, so self-consciousness is obviously a big factor, but even then I feel like I have some sort of deep, ingrained aversion to “giving my all.” Have any of you experienced this kind / degree of inhibition? Is there a way to overcome it? (In a way, it's too bad that personalities are just about impossible to really change - or so I've heard.) I feel that general inhibition is truly the number one problem or obstacle that is negatively affecting my playing and the enjoyment I gain (or wish I could) from it.
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