I just read the doubts of Edward Sura: "I think I might give up the violin....". I am fighting for 20 years already agains my doubts. Nothing changes. Each day the same frustrating clash between the pleasure for music ( given to you and played for you by the great violinists )and the un*pleasure of performing yourself. I am looking for satisfaction while performing but it is never there. The adrenaline rush, the technical mistakes, intonation problems, perfectionism,...,they all destroy what I actually want to do. A shame !
I want to give up each day and free myself from this virus...violin...I love it and I hate it each day and each minute...
Am I too old? Did I never practice enough? Do I have the courage for it? Am I musical enough? Can I manage the stress? Am I able to be a violinist? Is it worth is? and so on...
And still ... each day I am sorry that I spent hours without touching it , my violin...regrets and pain, hatred towards yuorself , towards your violin...and still ... each time I hear someone playing it (besides myself)I fall in love again!
We all do feel like this, I suppose.....:)
and still ... this is how I play
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