Today I've written a song on the piano. It was a song about summer but it turned out dark and kind of morbid. I'm feeling a bit depressed I guess. Every time it turns to summer, I just get depressed. It will be fun to explore the darkness again...this is where I belong. I'm going to stay in the orchestra, I've decided, because it looks good...that' sthe only reason...I'm totally selling out. The bad news is that I'll have to practice the music...the good news is, I can play more. Nothing wrong with that, I suppose... unless I'm running out of time, which we're always running out of time. We're always running out of money. Darkness my old friend...what will you bring?
one and a half hours until I leave for rehearsal. took a shower now I'm fresh and clean. It's getting really amazing to improvise. Started it out a week or two ago and I can feel , that trance starting to come on. I bet that's how all the cool music is made. It sounds real classical-ly , like terrible Berg or something with some american folk mixed in to it...its really strange. But when I get together with other peoples, its starts sounding more blue-zy like. I guess it depends on who I'm with..At this point sticking to one genre seems like such a chore...i'm just having fun at this point, but I do want to make it something more. I'm happy. What saddens me though is how much all the gear costs to plug my shit in. That's fuckin' depressing.
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