March 13, 2007… it’s about 11:30pm and a beautiful starry night, the moon is blue and my emotions still run deep! It’s my birthday, a long day of reflection, happiness, pain and just a collection of mixed emotions… Up to about four years ago, birthdays were fun and enjoyable but lately…
I spent most of “my day” in reclusion… practicing and composing! Yes… I also compose, and the mood was just perfect for it. Haaaaa!!! I’ve been playing the violin for 31 years… It feels like a long time, many, many endless hours of hard work and dedication! Many unforgettable concerts, 5 recorded albums, autographs, interviews, awards, critics… good ones and some bad ones also!
37 Years of life, 31 of violin playing, the gray air, the wrinkles a great supportive wife, 2 beautiful kids and 2 friendly dogs, not to mention the mortgage, car loans and the endless bills… ho yes… and the many, many dreams!
After all this, I ask myself… Was it worth it? If I had dedicated myself as much in a different career, maybe as a lawyer or accountant, I probably would be a MILIONAIRE, drive a nice car and live in a much bigger house! Was it worth it????
YES, YES, YES
I love the violin, I love music, I love my family… I could not live any other way… I AM A MUSICIAN, AN ARTIST a human being! Yes, I am a human being, who, like others, tend to never be happy with what we have. It’s never enough! But, in reality, perhaps, I do have enough! I am not a starving artists, I pay my bills, I have a beautiful family and along with all that I can firmly say, I am a violinist, I do what I love, I’ve been successful at it! My career continues to grow, I am maturing with the violin!
It’s now 1:40am, and my birthday as come and gone once more… it was an interesting day of reflection! Today, I’ve reminded and reassured myself once again of how important it is to be humble and happy with what you got! Stop leaving in the past and move forward! Work hard at what you love and you will prosper. I leave you with a simple line I always love…
Aim for the moon… if you miss, you will land amongst the STARS!
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