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Pauline Lerner


December 25, 2008 at 4:21 PM


I wish everyone peace during this holiday season and in the future.

From Paul G.
Posted on December 25, 2008 at 4:23 PM

I hope your wish came true :)

I've had a horrible holiday so far and things can only go down hill from here...

From Pauline Lerner
Posted on December 25, 2008 at 4:27 PM

Paul, I've often had the feeling that things will only get worse.  I find it helpful to remind myself of one good thing that happened to me that day.  It can be a very small thing -- a hug, a pretty sunset, hearing some pretty music, cooking a good meal, etc.  I hope that things turn around and get better for you soon.

From Paul G.
Posted on December 25, 2008 at 4:41 PM

I'll try to remember that. Things have just been going wrong and getting worse. I was up til 3 a.m. and I had to wake up at 8 this morning so I'm feeling a little sick. And I'm just having a horrible day. Christmas has lost it's magic for me and there's nothing special involved. I'm just extremely depressed today and finding it hard to come out of it :(

From Anne-Marie Proulx
Posted on December 25, 2008 at 6:27 PM

Paul, not to play the psy but it often happen to all musicians that truly care about their playing to have really "black" periods where they find everything is horrible. I am so often convinced that I don't have it at all (about music) and that it will never come back...  It is even worse when these bad periods appear during traditionnal "happy" periods like on Christmas holidays! But, usually, better things happen after! I think the problems with musicians from the serious amateurs to the pros are that we are people who think too much and have always moods related with how it goes in our personnal practices.  But you often get out stronger with even better ideas of these black periods and every good musician had these in his/her life and after all, life experiences are essential to be able to mature as a musician. (I didn't believe it but when you read some bios and listen to the recordings of these same performers, you see that there is a link between various way of expressing music and various life experiences) So, there is positive stuff in this, Paul!

just my two cents!

Pauline, you are right about peace! Thanks to remind this to us! Merry Christmas!


From Royce Faina
Posted on December 25, 2008 at 10:22 PM

Paul- If your depression persists for a week or more, from personal experience and others I know/known, depression like what you are going through should not be faced alone. Seek someone out who teaches people how to cope with it. It'll take courage, but I know that you can do it. Please concider this. It can be successfuly treated. And, you are not alone. I'm routing for you man!


From Pauline Lerner
Posted on December 26, 2008 at 4:42 AM

Many studies have tracked the occurrence of depression throughout the year.  The greatest incidence of depression is in December with its long nights and holiday stress.  Hang in there.  With luck, your depression will lift soon.

From Paul G.
Posted on December 26, 2008 at 4:45 PM

Hi Royce, Pauline;

It's over now... I was just having a bad day yesterday and things got better later at night at about six p.m.

And Pauline, I know what you mean... I've at least 1 a.m. every night since Christmas break started. This used to happen when I was little as well... I would go to bed normal time and my body would wake me up at 1 and then it would happen again and I would wake up at 4 and be up for the day.

From Royce Faina
Posted on December 26, 2008 at 8:24 PM

Good to hear from you! I didn't want to take chances! You've got friends here mate.

Hey, if you haven't checked out on this site where to go to read the google book by Leopold Aear (sp?) it's realy neat!



From Pauline Lerner
Posted on December 26, 2008 at 11:36 PM

I'm very glad you're feeling better, Paul.

From Drew Lecher
Posted on December 28, 2008 at 3:16 AM


You are a gem, and all of you as well.

God bless,


From Pauline Lerner
Posted on December 28, 2008 at 5:46 AM

Thank you very much, Drew, and best wishes to you, too.

From Karin Lin
Posted on December 28, 2008 at 7:32 AM

Thank you, Pauline.  Did you draw that?

Paul, I'm glad you're doing better.  It's nice to have such a caring community.

From Terez Mertes
Posted on December 29, 2008 at 1:59 AM

 Whoops - had to look twice to make sure this was Pauline's blog I was responding to, because replies got kinda side-tracked. Thank you for this simple, lovely message, and beautiful illustration, Pauline. It made me feel so peaceful to look at it.

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