Farewell and thank you to the community

December 29, 2021, 2:19 AM · It's been more than 4 years since I first picked up the violin. I hit a brick wall in just a year then couldn't find myself enjoying playing the instrument anymore. My brain has been programmed to press a very specific part of the violin when I see a note at a certain location. Change in scale moves things around and throws me off so much that I start making too much errors. My tiny brain can't handle scales lol I told myself that if I played again it won't have anything to do with reading music sheets, but that hasn't really happened after all these years.

I decided that instead of having hope of possibly playing it again, I'll just set myself free of guilt (having spent a decent fortune for my instruments and lessons) and this sense of failure and consider the whole experience as "completed". I tried but my best is not good enough. That is fine. I always tell myself it's better to have tried and failed than not try at all. I learned a lot and I'll always carry those positive lessons. I suppose instruments are just not for me, but overall the experience really made me appreciate musicians a lot now that I know how much effort and skills it takes to be good at them.

I'm super appreciative of this community. Many thanks! Please continue to help and support beginners like me many years ago.

P.S. I've grown attached to my violin and bow. Will be hard to sell and let them go haha. Doesn't seem like I will ever have a kid to pass them on to but they are also too expensive for me to just pass on to someone.

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