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Elise's discussion thread on what we sound like got me to thinking about the anxiety of publishing our performances. 

 

As an amateur, I'm well aware of my shortcomings.  I record my practice sessions regularly so that I may evaluate my progress between lessons.  Listening to these recordings is often a very painful experience.  I become hyper-aware of my shortcomings in intonation, shifting techniques, dynamic changes, and a plethora of other issues.  I will obsessively record myself over and over again to correct mistakes in search of the "perfect recording" that I feel comfortable to share with others.

 

Though what I post seemed satisfactory at the time, a few months later will I revisit those recordings and wonder what I was thinking when I published.  How could I possibly post something like that for public scrutiny? 

 

Then I remember what music is all about and share my best effort.