November 5, 2006 at 8:36 PMSo yesterday was the Mahler 5 concert. Today is play day. I am allowing myself to do whatever I want, with no pressures or negative thought. There were some fairly ragged spots in the third movement, and some ensemble problems in the finale. But I am not personally responsible and I did my best, so I am pleased. I am also pleased because I played much more of the music than I did last time I played Mahler 5. I didn't let myself fake any passages, and if I felt I wasn't right on the money in runs, I paused my bow and waited for it to become clear. Since we were using the revised orchestrated version (by Mahler), it had such exposed parts that I felt this was more responsible than my personal image.
And my bow arm was smoothe and shake-less. That is a big deal for me. I felt confident and as a result, today is happier. I still had a cold hands problem, but it wasn't painful and I took good care of my body all weekend. I now have a break from my recently crazy schedule to play viola and practice solo rep. on both instruments.
I am going to post an audio file: I am not sure it is completely violinist.com worthy, because it is a song, with string quartet accompaniment. But this is what I do for fun with music. Orchestra and practicing and the "quest" is fun as well, but this is how I relax with music. The song has 12 string guitar, two violin parts, two viola parts, and vocals. I take full responsibility for all of them, which could be good or bad.. The song was written in 1999 when I was an undergrad sophmore. Ahhh....the emotive years. It is called "Hypochondriac".
Grrr. So no faking means you must have had not only preparation, but immense focus and concentration. I didn't fake, but I missed some runs I could have, with, like mentioned...the hover-and-figure-out-the beat-bow.
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