October 22, 2004 at 6:43 PM

Wow. I have been on another planet for awhile and not kept up with V.Com. I have to say that I will be this way for awhile. My written comps are the 30th, my recital the 21st of Nov. and my orals sometime after that. I think. So I'm going a little bonkers trying to keep the rest of my life in order. I lost perspective last night when I was all wound up and not making good judgements and told my conductor that I wanted to quit orchestra. That comment was loaded. Had to do with more than just "orchestra". I can't believe I let myself slide like that. I've appologised for acting like a petulant child combined with an out of control adult and letting my sensitivities and, whatever else get me beyond upset. I hope things smoothe over. She was really cool about it, took it in stride. But I am embarrassed and feel like a jerk. Note to self. CHILL OUT! k. Off to practice and teach.
JW

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