April 2010

Un-motivated-itis

April 19, 2010 19:24

Wow, I've neglected this site (and blog) for far too long! I started to write a few times, but life is rather like a whirlwind.

Anyway...

I'm now almost done with my first year of college. Yikes! My last post was from the day after I moved into my dorm room in August. So much has changed since then. My perspective changes in little ways every day. It's really neat.

But, Catie, what about the music? The music is... me. I am the music. One of the most thought-provoking sayings from my prof this year- "be the music." I don't know if he'll ever know how much I end up thinking about little lines like that (or how I'll ever thank him for them). Why? I begin to transfer them and their meaning to "Catie the person" too. Usually, I don't like what I find when I do that, but I'm becoming a better person and musician as a result- which is what this is really all about!

However, I'm hitting a wall (motivationally) that I don't quite understand. I have no drive to make myself practice... but have no reason to feel unmotivated. Juries are looming in the near future, I have a concerto to finish up before mid-May (Wieniawski 2), and I love what I'm doing. So... what am I missing?

The only thing I can think of it that I'm mentally burned out. It's been a tough semester for me (incredibly hectic and not enough sleep) and maybe my brain has already given up. Well, I have a month left. Oops. So, for all of you college types and those who have been there before, how did you combat this issue?

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