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Paul G.

Hate me for who I am. Don't love me for something I'm not. - My View Out

December 22, 2008 at 4:28 PM

That sentence is going to shape my life. It's meaning is many, but the main points being that I won't change for anyone, I won't try to over impress, and I won't allow myself to be labeled... This blog isn't about that sentence for the reason being I don't believe it can, nor needs to be explained beyond it.

I'm sitting here immersed in solitude. I look out the window peering into a scene of beauty. It's magical. The snow is dancing around. Just when I think I've learned it's pattern of movement, it changes. I see the most beautiful group of birds. They are happy, content and not fazed by the snow which is pounding them. The perch outside my window which they've set themselves upon is undisturbed and calm.

I have it all this morning. Beauty to the eyes as well as the ears.

I am content, happy, and yet unsettled. With this snow which I see as beauty, lays a sense of danger. The roads are not safe, thus making my trip to the music store today impossible. Many people would view this as being a prisoner to their home. Not me. I see this as my whole day being opened up for me to do with it what I please.

It's quite amazing what can lay beyond a window and the concept behind it. What is a window there for? To seperate yet provide a view out. What lay beyond mine is amazing to me. Such simplicity yet complexity from the same view.

From Larisa Mihaela
Posted on December 22, 2008 at 4:32 PM

I really iked this blog .

Hate me for who I am - don't love me for somethig I am not.I think I will always remember this quote. These are wonderful ideas. Great mind for your age. Have you ever considered according more attention to your writing abilities ?You have the analytical , introspective, and observant  mind of a writer.

Take care,


From Paul G.
Posted on December 22, 2008 at 4:37 PM


I don't think I'm creative enough for that... It's like I have to be told, or have inspiration to write about something. With that essay, I was only able to write it because I had the topic given to me. If it was something where I would have had to come up with a topic myself it wouldn't have worked so well. I'm just not creative enough to do that. But something like what I've seen this morning gives me inspiration to write about it. Hope that makes sense to you.

Have a good day,


From Anne-Marie Proulx
Posted on December 22, 2008 at 6:16 PM

Great blog! About the snow, you are right. I live in Canada and here some people are not always happy when the snow comes because it creates problems on the streets, you have to scrape your car, it's freezing oudoors but I see the beauty of the nature (when well dress to go outside with warm coat!), the Christmas atmosphere and above all, something of our patrimoine and history. What would be countries like, Canada, Russia, Scandinavia without snow? We must be proud to have what we have in our countries. Yes Canada is quite a nordic country and thus it's just normal that there will be snow each winter that brings just tiny problems compare to all the marvels you can do with it : hockey, ski, skating on the river, slide with a sleigh, looking at the wonderful landscape etc... The only one who really have the right to hate winter is the people who are too poor to be dress warm ennough and always freeze. But the majority of the population is able to enjoy the winter without freezing so why not enjoy this wonderful gift from nature:snow!  I just hope stricter laws will come one day to avoid the global planet warming!


From Laurie Niles
Posted on December 22, 2008 at 6:43 PM

I'm in Southern California, missing the snow. It was certainly part of my youth, in Colorado, and your description brings me to that beauty. I miss the "snow days" as much as I miss the snow!

From Tom Holzman
Posted on December 22, 2008 at 7:31 PM

I am curious about the sentence.  I cannot understand the apparent assumption that anyone will hate you whether for whom you are or are not.

From Michael Divino
Posted on December 22, 2008 at 7:34 PM
truly poetic
From Paul G.
Posted on December 22, 2008 at 8:12 PM


I meant it in the sense that someone is always going to be hated by another... And if that someone didn't like me for who I am, they can live their life that way. And I'm not going to change for something they want.

From George Fillerup
Posted on December 22, 2008 at 8:26 PM

I think that if one has not made a few enemies in life, one has not made much of an impact. 

I'm also from Southern California.  A native.  The first time I experienced snow was in an Army training camp in Germany.  I think it is nice to look at, but please, none of it L.A.  thank you....... hehe

From Tom Holzman
Posted on December 22, 2008 at 8:44 PM

Paul - thanks for the clarification. 

George - I do not necessarily subscribe to the philosophy that if no one hates you you haven't done anything in life.  Perhaps in politics and other contact sports, but I am not sure it applies to everyone in all walks of life.

I love the fact that you never saw snow until your army service.  That's the thing about the military; all the things you get to do, good and bad, that you otherwise never would do.



From Pauline Lerner
Posted on December 23, 2008 at 4:01 AM

Paul, you must have been really inspired when you wrote this, because it made me feel inspired, too.

I think you should always be yourself, diplomatically if possible.  It's a fool's game to try to be what someone else wants you to be.  You might even be wrong in your perception of what the other person wants you to be.  You have to feel comfortable with being who you really are, including both strengths and weaknesses.

I agree that your writing shows great understanding for someone your age.

Laurie, someone just told me that it's snowing in Las Vegas.  Maybe it will snow in southern California, too.


From Anthony Barletta
Posted on December 23, 2008 at 5:34 AM

Paul wrote: <I don't think I'm creative enough for that... It's like I have to be told, or have inspiration to write about something.>
I think you underestimate yourself. You sure sound like a writer to me.  Is the title of the blog original?  It's really quite wonderful.

From Paul G.
Posted on December 23, 2008 at 6:01 AM


Yes, it's original. As far as I know it. Because I haven't read it anywhere or heard it.

But I still don't think I have what it takes to be a writer... My "skills" are nothing like people who have done it professionally (like Laurie, for example). I like writing but I don't know if it's something I could sustain if you know what I mean. I think I would run out of things to write about. That's what's great about music to me; it's there already and all I have to do is read it and learn to play it.

From Anthony Barletta
Posted on December 23, 2008 at 6:31 AM

<<I think I would run out of things to write about.>>

Only if you run out of things you love, or hate, or if you think the world is perfect.

Slim chance if you ask me.

From Paul G.
Posted on December 23, 2008 at 6:40 AM

Ha. I didn't think of it from that point of view. I'll remember that :)

From Jim Glasson
Posted on December 23, 2008 at 12:17 PM

A great post and to me, pretty inspiring.

Well done.



From Larisa Mihaela
Posted on December 23, 2008 at 5:12 PM


You don't need to have things to write about. Just follow your internal expresivity . Actually things to write about are all around you. It is not even whether the things are there or not. It is how you see what you see. What might seem like a regular conjucture to many , to the writer it will be a good story oportunity ...or a good poetry. Wonderful music has been written about the most uninteresting things;the same, wonderful poetries have been written about the most common realities.


Do you like reading? Read as much as possible (when you have time left from music , of course) , to develop your writing talents. You never know how that is going to help you :) .

From Rosalind Porter
Posted on December 24, 2008 at 2:21 AM

I agree with everyone else!  Paul - you've definitely got a talent for writing, something you should encourage yourself to develop.   Keep on blogging for a start and I would also like to read your opinions on a favourite DVD or CD, I think you'd put together some interesting reviews.

From Paul G.
Posted on December 24, 2008 at 2:44 AM


Yes, I do like reading. I just don't get around to doing it as much anymore. As a present I asked for the book The Secret Life of Bees ( So I'll be looking forward to recieving that book. Maybe it's time that I go through my library and pick out some books that I read years ago. It's just hard for me to read books more than once because they stay in my head and I have a pretty good memory of things... That's why I can't stand watching a movie more than one time unless it's been a period of time longer than a year.


Okay :)

I haven't bought any classical albums or dvds lately but maybe I'll get an iTunes gift card for Christmas and I'll purchase some that interest me. But maybe I could do a review of some of the albums I've bought this year; kind of a giant review of maybe 10 or so albums. Hmmm... Well, maybe I'll start this project tomorrow! I don't really have anything else to do besides practice and a break would probably be good. Thanks for the idea :)

From George Fillerup
Posted on December 24, 2008 at 5:36 PM

Tom,  I know my comment  was a bit cynical, but it is based on a lifetime of experience.  Life is a competition, whether we like it or not.  There will always be people who will will hate and envy success,  I don't care if it is jelly making.  The main thing is to understand that part of human nature and take it as it comes.  Peace, 

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