May 2012

All I asked not to happen

May 22, 2012 09:23

I was asked to play "All I ask of You" at my sister n laws wedding this past weekend. I have never played a solo on my own with out my teacher who was a million miles away and I was really nervous. I did the beginning very well and was pretty proud of myself becuase the wedding was outdoors(first time playing outdoors) I had a very flimsy stand and it was really hot and windy. Suddenly when I got to the end of the piece literally 10 measures away I froze and blanked on the notes. I tried again from the safe spot that my teacher instructed me to do in case that happened.. played one or two notes and froze again...so I ended the piece Immediately(which I didnt play so hot either) , needless to say I was a little mortified and walked over to my husband and shed a few tears. I definatly learned a few things but currently I am feeling a little defeated and frustrated becuase I worked so hard on the piece to fail at the very end was very disapointing..hopefully I can pick myself up and carry on...I was playing for family and friends and they were supportive and actually said it wasn't bad at all but I feel like I disapointed the bride a little. Can't change it but I really wish I could :(

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