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Eileen Geriak

Now.......why did I want to do this whole violin thing ??

July 4, 2006 at 7:26 AM

How incredibly frustrating !

I played in church yesturday....it was a last minute request by the pastor and I only had a few days to work on the tune...an easy enough tune but in a scale which isn't one of my favs (BbM) and the bowing was a bit tedious...but I figured.."heck, I can do this". I was going to be playing along with the keyboard but I didn't get to practice with her until just before the service. Just a few times through.

Man, what a blowout ! I did fine while we were practicing...it was just the two of us and I had showed up a half hour early to warm up and just enjoy playing by myself with no one else around. As soon as I got up there to play during the service.....I CHOKED ! GAAA ! I HATE that ! I didn't even get the doxology right..and I can play that one in my SLEEP ! OYE!

I started off ok but then for some reason I couldn't see the notes..(brain freeze!)..I tried to just play along by ear and memory of the tune but I couldn't do it ! LOL ! I suppose I didn't do as badly as I think I did and most folks probably didn't even notice my goofs...a missed note here or there, for the most part I at least played the notes in tune....LOL..even if they were the wrong ones AHAHAHA ! What an incredible let down and disappointment ! I was depressed for the rest of the day and didn't even want to LOOK at that stupid violin ! Went through the whole.."why am I even doing this" whine....pathetic !

I've only been playing for almost 4 years...and I seldom if ever get the opportunity to actually play for anyone....in public. One of the reasons I joined the fiddle group is to get used to playing in a group. We also sometimes play at a local restaurant,which helps me to get used to playing in public...but..........there are at least 15 of us and it's sooooo easy to hide and not be noticed. I don't get nervous at all when I play with those guys..most of them are just as bad as I am...LOL ! BUT....when it's just you and the piano however.........man !

Oh well, I don't think I want to do that again for another YEAR maybe....lol. Or at least until I can get the opportunity to work through a tune with the accompianist for more than 10 minutes. I did fine on the piece we worked on for a month before playing...I guess I'm just no good at improv...YET !

Anyway, I found a tutorial for music theory on the web....and it's like 3am right now and I'm sitting here typing this after going through the tutorial up to the "major scales" part. My head is swimming....I never was any good at math but I really really want to know just what all these notes and scales are about...and how they work. For you folks who grew up learning this stuff I must seem like a dunce........but I didn't know ANYTHING about music until I picked that violin up almost 4 years ago !

I so want to be able to do this....so I'll just pick up my bruised ego and try to sneak into church next week...maybe nobody will notice me in the back pew.....

From Richard Hellinger
Posted on July 4, 2006 at 3:14 PM
Im sure you couldn't have been bad.. I don't like the key of Bflat either. But it is a lot easier then Dflat major in 5th position (one of my resent orchestra expereinces.... what a nightmare that was:)
*Violins Make the World go Round*
From Eileen Geriak
Posted on July 4, 2006 at 9:57 PM
Thanks Richard....lol...it's ok because I asked my daughter what she thought ..and she said they could hardly hear me at all because the piano was too loud. I immediately felt better after she said that ! haha ! Maybe, I could just play up there like that so no one actually can hear what I'm playing....and then once I get over the 'fear factor' they can mike me or something....lol !

I'm not even up to 5th yet...working on 3rd and 2nd. I have been up to 5th on the E string for a couple of pieces though. I have a heck of a time working the higher positions on the D and G string...it's actually PAINFUL !

From Karin Lin
Posted on July 5, 2006 at 5:46 PM
Aw, Eileen, I sympathize...I think we're all familiar with the feelings of embarrassment and frustration after a less-than-perfect performance. Rest assured that it happens to everyone, and thank goodness for loud pianos. :) To steal a line from Clare Chu---keep your chin up and over a violin! Hang in there, girl! (Have you tried the new strings yet?)
From Eileen Geriak
Posted on July 5, 2006 at 7:40 PM
Thanks Karin...I've gotten over my little pity party...lol. I Just spent the last 3 hours practicing the tunes my fiddle group will be playing on Sat. (plus working through my lessons) There will be plenty of us at this gig, so no worries about nerves there...lol.

I haven't tried the strings yet...I want to wait until after this Sat. event because I don't know what they will do. If for some reason I don't like them the strings I have on now may not play the same for me and I'll miss my chance to be awesome on Sat....(GAFFAW!)

Thanks again for sending them Karin ! I'll let you know how they do for me ! :-)

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