I was playing a game of Tetris online, when suddenly a question popped into my head. Why do we Seem so Intimidating? I ask this because I know a lot of people outside of school come across as being intimidated when the topic of 'unpopular' music crops up. Is it like that for you? It's a normal discussion, but once it goes past popular music, everyone backs away and you're left feeling like the odd one out.
I could apply personally feeling intimidated by certain other cultures outside the music one though. For instance, the culture of dancing. Although I used to be a dancer myself, it has always felt like an intimidating thing to me watching rehearsals and feeling the atmosphere. And if a group of dancers were to approach me and start talking about dance, I'd feel way out of place.
But it doesn't have to be like that, does it? I try my best to make the discussion of music open to everyone. I don't try to be snobby or throw words like 'crescendo' and 'spiccato' into the conversation unless I know the other person is musical themselves. Yet, there seems to be this thing of people backing away. Maybe it's the feeling of the unknown, the fact that as musicians we delve deeper into the subject than 'they have a great voice.' What do you think?
Since my blog about my tinnitus back in July, much has happened. I have moved schools to a specialist music school to carry on with my education with my main focus being placed on music, and I have been building up a new repertoire on violin, piano and voice. I have also had a series of violin lessons this half term - my first ones in two and a half years - and they're going absolutely brilliantly! My technique has been coming on in leaps and bounds, and I couldn't be happier!
That is, apart from my tinnitus getting in the way... again! Due to the new environment I'm in and being in a city rather than the countryside where I live, my tinnitus has been somewhat more aggravated than usual. So after 6 weeks at my new school, and the tinnitus in my right ear becoming increasingly worse, I decided to go back to the audiology unit at the hospital and get it sorted!
If you read my last tinnitus blog, then you'll know what I'm going on about by having two matching ears! To those who haven't, basically I got a device which goes behind the ear (and looks like a hearing aid) which feeds white noise into the ear, training my brain to eventually block out unwanted noise, including my tinnitus. It takes a long time, but the results are worth it! My left ear has improved a lot in the past couple of months to the point where the tinnitus is almost unnoticeable. Anyway, after 6 weeks of bad tinnitus, the future looks bright as I got the same type of device but for my right ear this time! Now I have matching ears, I'm quite excited that I'll be getting my quality of life back again so I can concentrate on my music in peace!
I guess I'll be having to dig out those little violin stickers again... :)
More entries: August 2011
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