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Starting Over

June 26, 2012 at 3:36 AM

i was dying. despite many other accomplishments and outlets, i longed for my violin. just to hold it and attempt to play again. even if that meant variations of twinkle in every key imaginable.

almost two months later...

i am maddened by this obsession called music. my teacher has taken extreme care to develop the ying to my yang. i catch flies with chopsticks, wax cars, do various seemingly unrelated exercises and though i have seen "karate kid" many a time, i still find myself at times anxious to just fight already.

but at other times, which is slowly becoming most other times, i enjoy feeling the vibrations of the body against my shoulder and watching as tiny adjustments in my right or left hand transform the sound into music. i crave it. constantly.

this blog is about my personal journey with music. facing insecurities about starting over in a time when the age of 30 is considered to be too late and the process is never less than cumbersome and magical.

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