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 Falling ShortOctober 6, 2007 at 8:59 AM I finished the last of my pieces for the art show, only six days after George and I hung the rest of the show on the walls of the coffee shop. I'm looking at it now, the image of yellow devil's club in the sunlight, and I... Hmm, I'm not happy with it. I think it could have been more, although what I created says something in and of itself. Someone out there is bound to like it, but to me, it is a proclamation of why I'm not really an artist.Poser. The implications of failure are heavy. I apply them across the board to see how I fall short of the white line that measures the achievement of my goals. In this shortcoming with the drawing, I see how I also fall equally short of my goals as a violinist. Trying and failing, is it really all it's cracked up to be? I think it may have been less risky (and less tasking) to watch movies in the evening, to read a good book, or to settle into conversations with friends over coffee. Instead, I spent two weeks shuttling all my spare time over to the artwork, gambling on an unknown, hoping that this creation would finally embody the genius in my head, the true portrait of my heart. It falls short. Most times it does, by different measurements each time. This disappointment should be familiar to me by now, but every time, I still feel uncomfortable and wish it would just go away. Instead, the dissonance of my failure fuels the next attempt.
From Jim W. Miller
The rule of thumb is to carefully estimate the amount of time required...and then double it. Keeps ya out of trouble. Personally, I quadruple it. Nobody cares how long something takes, but if you miss the delivery date you have some explaining to do.
Posted on October 6, 2007 at 9:51 AM From Roy Sonne
Hi Emily,Posted on October 6, 2007 at 12:44 PM It sounds to me like you are very much an artist indeed. Here is a wonderful quote from Martha Graham which says it all much better than I could. "There is a vitality, a life force, a quickening that is translated through you into action, and because there is only one of you in all time, this expression is unique. Keep the channel open. No artist is pleased. There is no satisfaction whatever at any time. There is only a queer, divine dissatisfaction; a blessed unrest that keeps us marching and makes us more alive than the others." From Tom Holzman
Sounds like you have the right attitude and mind-set. So, keep at it! Ultimately, life is the journey and not the destination.
Posted on October 6, 2007 at 4:26 PM From Albert Justice
Creating, is the most basic thing of life beyond breathing. And life itself is the only perfection any of us are guaranteed while breathing, thus creating. Posted on October 6, 2007 at 5:13 PM Reading a book, is creating--with the author. Being with friends is creating, community. I won't comment on television. Your art is beautiful--it is not where if may fall short in your eyes, but your willingness to renew yourself, to keep creating.
From Pauline Lerner
Roy, thanks for that quote by Martha Graham. She says it beautifully.Posted on October 7, 2007 at 7:28 AM Emily, you are probably your own toughest critic. Keep in mind that the glass is half full.
From Emily Grossman
We have to be our own worst critic, if we are to truly understand the need for change.Posted on October 7, 2007 at 2:00 PM Last night at the coffee shop (where my art is hanging) while I was killing some time before my performance, a woman there kept telling her friend how much she liked that particular drawing. I introduced myself and told her how much I appreciated hearing her say that. I really do.
From Emily Grossman
Roy, I love that quote!
Posted on October 7, 2007 at 2:08 PM From Keith Laurie
Wonderful performance last night (as always), Emily! Based on that, I have to wonder what goals as a violinist you won't be able to meet...
Posted on October 7, 2007 at 5:27 PM From Keith Laurie
Wonderful performance last night (as always), Emily! Based on that, I have to wonder what goals as a violinist you won't be able to meet...
Posted on October 7, 2007 at 5:27 PM From Emily Grossman
Hey, it was nice to finally meet you, Keith. Can you believe we played for 260 people? I've never seen the building so full of people, filling all the extra fold-up chairs, standing along the walls, and overflowing into the foyer. Wow, and what a receptive, fun crowd it was. I enjoyed every minute of it. Hope you did, too.
Posted on October 8, 2007 at 1:08 AM From Jim W. Miller
If you weren't a poser there'd have only been another five or ten people there, so don't worry about it.
Posted on October 8, 2007 at 3:29 AM From Emily Grossman
What if Shakespeare was right after all, that we're all just acting a part? That makes us all posers.
Posted on October 8, 2007 at 7:33 AM From Jim W. Miller
That's right. In fact I think I read they aren't even sure Shakespeare was real.
Posted on October 8, 2007 at 7:52 AM From Emily Grossman
Poser.
Posted on October 8, 2007 at 9:49 AM From Jim W. Miller
Of course. The difference between you and me though is it doesn't bother me :)
Posted on October 8, 2007 at 9:51 AM From Emily Grossman
I was calling Shakespeare a poser, not you.
Posted on October 8, 2007 at 6:09 PM From Amie Johnson
Failure is only in a persons mind.Theres really no such thing when it comes to art.but i always find myself pulling down something that ive drawn and make little changes and feeling that its not done.Most artists are like that.Posted on October 9, 2007 at 11:22 PM http://www.amateurillustrator.com/galleries/thumbnails.php?album=1477 Just keep working at it. This entry has been archived and is no longer accepting comments. |
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