Written by Rizky Ramadhan
Published: January 17, 2014 at 8:12 PM [UTC]
If one is a professional musicians, audience is like one of the energy source of performing music, like an atmosphere that keeps the performance alive. From the performer’s point of view, I know I never really experience that feeling. But as an audience, I truly notice it..
But even if music is not my professional career, I personally think audience is still an important thing for me. At first, it simply just feels like I need people to be around me, to notice me, like commonly young people do (although lately I consider myself to be an introvert...and a bit not young anymore lol). However after few years playing, or you can say after “few year messing around the violin”, I just want people to experience what I feel when I play, especially the joy and particular emotions you can sense in each music.. I just want to share the music, just to let them aware that such beautiful thing exists and it doesn’t just popped out like magic, it is produced by hard-work, patience, passion, dedication, commitment, joy, and even sorrow... with time, energy, (okay I’ll try stop the drama thing) oh and of course...money! lol
But what will these music that I practice mean if no one hears and understand what I’m doing?? I think I still can stand it. I play by myself for myself, for my own emotions, almost all the time. But on the other side I’ve always been wondering to feel the real experience, being with the proper audience...
If you read my previous blogs, you’ll probably have a picture of what I was/am facing. There are good things coming, but more bad things following. The people around me is getting worse and starts making me insane. Many new “professional violinists” are appearing in my city! It supposed to be great news, isn’t it? I REALLY DO HOPE it was. There are communities keep appearing and advertising themselves as professional classical musicians here. It’s good to know that nowadays many people here got interest to start learning to play stringed instruments, especially our popular instrument called violin. Here everyone can be a superstar violinist. When you play Bach’s G major Minuet (or I must say, Petzold’s Minuet) making you an instant “orchestra player”! You don’t have to care about bowings, fingerings, phrasings, articulations, intonations, etc. or even holding the violin. As long as you can produce the Minuet or ANY popular songs out from your violin/VSO with rumbling improvised ornaments, left-hand shaking (oh it’s called vibrato!!) and superfast tempo, you are a professional violinist! Plus, you just don’t have to read music because it just makes you become passive and static musicians. Yay! Well, I must back off because I DON’T DO THAT, and that makes me become the freak one because I DON’T DO THAT.
If you read my previous blog, I said “I was like a person from stone age seeing fire for the first time” when I saw the orchestral score at the first time of my life. But the people around are even WORSE. I’m sorry being rude but they ARE.
The other musicians from groups other than superstar violinists I described above are newly-learning violin players and they found their “fire” mostly from the internet within range of 2 or 3 years. They do read music, like reading crotchets or quavers in melody line of pop music vocal (which luckily written in sheet music) and voila! they are well-known as classically-trained violinists.. Yes, reading music makes you instantly classically-trained.. ANY thing you read does). Oh I almost forget that they also do arrange music. They write their own two-part violin score: same melody in unison, or occasionally in octaves.. sometimes they make harmony for those two violin parts by dividing the exactly same melodies of pop. songs into two different keys (for example: violin I in D major, and violin II in C major) and play them together.. “OH WHAT A SWEET DISSONANCES!”, they think... They have unique terminology as well, for example the key of C major is called “natural clef”... They made their own teaching books too.. Yes, they TEACH violin.
And the audience are seeing like their 5 or 10 violinists performing and say, “that’s a symphony orchestra!!”
Many of them never heard the name of Jascha Heifetz or even Itzhak Perlman! The pieces of music they heard is most likely just the Pachelbel's Canon or Bach's Air, etc. When I mention Sarasate or even Ravel, they would say I am an alien speaking alien.
In other provinces there are lots of music schools and professional musicians.. so many soloists and ensembles and so many concerts, so the people around them do have the picture, they have the awareness, consciousness, and knowledge. So even if the "barbarian" communities keep appearing, they would just be gone by time, or, they and the new audiences just getting “mannered” because they already have the right environment to grow.
If only we have the same things here, personally I would not have to care about them. But this is really pissed me off. I’m feeling so sad. I almost can’t do anything to change this since I don’t have time and power, I got many obligations to do, and this would waste so much time and energy. And besides, they would say “who wants to hear a self-taught?” They will just barely compare myself and themselves because we are all self-taught...
I'm sorry I really don't mean to mock about how bad they are. If only they just "keep calm", it would be probably better.. I'm just feeling so distressed. :'(
I might say I can only "cry" through my violin. All my hard-work almost mean nothing. That's why I keep uploading stuffs I played, I have NO intention to show off how good I am going alone all this time, but just to seek the real people anywhere out there, to hear their comments, not just "oh it's good and it's bad", but more like detailed comment so I can improve and correct myself.. Because I can't find such people here..
I'm quite lucky there are many good friends I met through internet.. so many performers, teachers, luthiers, students and even just audiences whom give me their honest words and I thank them, and you all :)
dear Lydia, thanks for noticing it. Yes I did that. I struggle like hell producing the best sound I can make so I took like 10-15 of recordings and honestly both my looks/visual and the sound didn't always doing good. E.g. a take looks quite nice but the sound was awful and the other one looks awful but sound better. (Although mostly I looked scary.. lol)
But I'm so very sorry if then this actually failed in eyes and ears, but at least it's still me who play :D
btw your comment just showed up.. it's weird it appeared quite late as I notice there was no any comment before Shasha's.. maybe it's an error on my internet or browser or something...
In regard to criticisms, I can't offer any (full disclosure, I'm self-taught too and you play better than I do). As a listener, hearing the piece twice, I think you could experiment with subtleties in the dynamics. Particularly as the theme is repeated, I thought there was opportunity for a delicate restatement -- something softer and even more lonely, having the melody say something a little bit different with each repetition. But it is quite lovely as it is.
A further point, though, about criticism. You have made a very definite statement with this piece and it really comes down to what you think about it. If there is something that you feel you could've done, that "should've" been different in some aspect -- you could ask more experienced violinists how to move toward whatever difference in sound exists between what you played, and something that you aspire toward. Otherwise people will be essentially just telling you how they would have played it, something that might not address your goals at all.
The real question is does this form accomplish what you felt?
Part of the artistry is in deciding what you want, what sounds need to be there to get what you want, and afterwards determining whether the piece as you played it accomplished your goals and arrived at that musical idea.
All I can say is your playing would have accomplished my goals. It is really so very lovely.
I'm just a student like you but I sometimes felt that you weren't giving enough attention to some of the lower notes. I agree with the others in saying that it might be good to try and add a bit more variety. Follow the principal that you never play the same part the same way again. Also the fast parts stood out too much, maybe that was because you were trying to fit them into the piano.
Otherwise the overall performance is very lovely and I enjoyed listening to it. I liked you vibrato. Keep it up.
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